I've been busy lately. I can't remember the last time I truly prayed until this week. I have some big things happening in my life and you see, I know I can't do it alone. So I pray after being stubborn and thinking I can do it on my own I came to my senses and I've been on my knees ever since. I'm in the middle of a job change its very stressful. It came to me that I was praying but not preparing for God's gifts that would be given unto me. I wasn't fully trusting God with my heart. Sometimes I worry; I worry so much I make myself sick.... rather than trusting in God's plans for me.
After getting all that off my chest I feel selfish and guilty for not first mentioning my grandfather who started hospice care today. It's very hard to see it happen in our house, but he's ready and comfortable here.... He's always been one of those people with an old soul. They type who never say a foul thing about anyone and always go with the flow. Its so hard to see him and the rest of the family hurting at this time.
SIUC is officially dealing with a faculty strike as of today. If they do not come to a compromise in the next two weeks our whole semester will have been a waste and will not count. I feel so bad for all of the students out there stressing about that. I know I am.
I leave my current job on Tuesday and don't actually know whether I will have a new job. I'm still waiting on background and reference checks to go through at the new place. Its a very scary thought in this economy.
I want to leave one final note about the "Occupy" revolution across the country. I pray no more disputes break out. I pray for the damage that has been done. I pray for clarity in their hearts about their beliefs whatever they may be.